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Blessings of JHShVH be upon you
it has been always a hard point in Gnosis, to begin with the proposals, that we are not awake and we don't have a true divine individuality. it has always been explained that it is for us not to accepted it or reject it but to take it as a challenge, that will resolve only through self internalisation practice, through self-observation, through self introspection.
Here are some extracts from Nicolls that may help to understand, why we started with this proposals:
"the very fact that the work begin with self-observation surely is to shew that it demands a personal effort on the part of the individual and only each of you can observe himself or herself, no one else can do this for you"
"but the starting point of this self-change remains hidden as long as man is under the illusion that he is one. A man must realize for himself that he is not one but many and he can only do this by means of uncritical observation of himself"
"A man that say: I know i am not one but many - the work say so. But that is nothing. the knowledge remains external to the man himself. but if he applies the knowledge practically and through long self-observation begins to see the truth of it, then he will say: I Understand i am not one but many - and this is quite different thing. The knowledge will have borne fruit in him, so to speak, and will no longer be merely knowledge, but understanding, because the man has applied the knowledge to himself and by means of it worked on his own being".
"for if we imagine that we have already got qualities of being that we are far from possessing, we can never expect to have them. Our imagination will supply the deficiency"
"self observation will shew him that he has practically no control on his thoughts and can not even stop thinking if he tries to do so and that thoughts of every kind come and go on his mind whether he wishes them or not. And it is the same with his feelings and with his moods, and his words and actions. But if he can not admit that he is other than fully conscious of all he say and does and in full control of his thoughts and moods and feelings and always one and the same person, all this will remain hidden, concealed from him by the power of his own imagination, and the whole sense of himself, his whole sense of "I", and his relationship to his inners states will be false"
"but if he goes to sleep in himself - that is, if he ceases to be conscious of what is going on in him and which I's are close to him - he falls under its power and, becoming identified with it, imagines that it is he himself who is thinking in that way. By doing this, he strengthens the power of this negative I over him - because, as you know, whatever we identify with at once has power over us, and the more often we identify with something, the more we are slaves to it"
Pleroma & Que las rosas florescan en tu cruz
Frater H de O
